Due to my husband having some outdoor chores to do, I find my self with some free time this weekend. His activities allow him to take the kids (all of them!) . This is exciting news for me. While I adore my kiddos, a few minutes alone is worth celebration.
Just this evening he was off with three of the girls and while another one was at a birthday party. I had two hours alone. I pledged not to clean or do dishes. This is where spare time gets tricky. I have so many ideas on what I can do, that I overwhelm my mind and over-think the simplest of things. Should I watch a movie, read a book. I have so many magizines piled up that I have yet to read…maybe I should listen to music that I enjoy?
I quickly realized that a hot, hot, hot bath was a must. I know I make my bath water way to hot, but I do so love it! I have actually been known to turn up the water heater before a bath, so I can re-fill it with hot water. I know this is not energy friendly, but it is so infrequent I allow myself to do it.
What should I read? I have two books that I cannot seem to get into, so I don’t want to bother with them right now. I pick up two magazines, and head to my bath with a few Girl Scout cookies and the phone (what if they need me?). I soak for a while and try to read the magazines, quickly realizing the mags are way to motivating and have me thinking of what meals to make next week and how to lose some weight. That is not relaxing at all.
After my bath, I slowly get dressed and am amazed by my quiet house. I then look at the clock. I had used a whopping 27 minutes for my bath! What else could I do with all this time? Again, my mind goes through things to do for fun: nap, read,nap, music, nap…then I hear the windchimes. I go outdoors and bask in the late afternoon sun and air. Perfection.
As I get up to go get Mita from her party, I realize that there is no breeze. I look at the still windchimes with wonder. I follow the sounds and realize that the relaxing sound was the Wii in the den. The kids had left it on and that calming waiting sound was playing! Not really a zen moment, but it was my moment.
As moms, we often feel that using our free time is selfish. No wonder most of us are stressed to the max. I really want to work on getting more “me time”. Then maybe I won’t panic when it finally happens and not know what to do. I have another couple of hours alone tommorow before I go to the grocery. I have scheduled a pedicure…we’ll see if it actually happens!